Why?

On May 11, 2014, I drafted the following post. I didn't post it, but today nearly 3 months later, I feel amazing and this one act of service got me back on track. I don't know why I didn't post it then, but I know that posting it today I'm proud to reveal it and reflect on the victory of giving. Enjoy!

“When you feel down go be a blessing to someone else." - Joyce Meyers

I recently saw this Joyce Meyers' quote posted on Facebook, but I've heard this same sentiment for years. Many of us have, even our President has professed a similar statement.

“The best way to not feel hopeless is to get up and do something. Don’t wait for good things to happen to you. If you go out and make some good things happen, you will fill the world with hope, you will fill yourself with hope.”  ― Barack Obama

So when you decide to shave your head as a woman, especially a black woman who has never worn a wig or weave, it raises some eyebrows and definitely people want to know why.  So even after explaining it's to raise money for childhood cancer research. It's not enough for that deeper question, the  why that gives insight into "what they hell were you thinking when you decided this was a good idea?" LOL. It's an understandable question because even as I contemplated doing this I wasn't too sure why I needed to do this to raise money for childhood cancer research, I just knew something had to give.  

See just a week prior to this decision I was struggling, stress was winning the best of me.  I spent days in tears, just dealing with stress after stress after stress, constantly and not seeing relief in site.  Just days before I took on the challenge to raise money by shaving my head, my sister had begged me to go to a hospital for mental support, feeling I was close to a breaking point.  So what my issue was and still are  isn't important to this post because writing this isn't to gain sympathy for me but to be honest about what lead to this decision.  (End of May 11th Post)

The outpouring of love and support was amazing.  Knowing that I was helping parents that I couldn't imagine what they were going through and being thankful that I had THREE healthy children was beyond words. If anything, I felt I should do more. I can't thank my donors enough, helping me raise $5, 000 in 4 days and the continued donations beyond the shave.  My total going over $5500 to date, check it out at my donor page, my donation list is amazing are the real heroes in all of this: https://www.stbaldricks.org/participants/mypage/729029/2014. 

Humbling Experience that lifted me up from despair,

Lynnell

“When you feel down go be a blessing to someone else." - Joyce Meyers